Mother of Heaven

You are more lovely
than the sun and moon
shining in the sky together.

MOTHER of heaven,
Your wonders are sung
by those above and those below.

From Thunder, Perfect Mind (Gnostic gospels)

Do not be ignorant of me. Be on your guard!

For I am the first and the last.

I am the honored one and the scorned one.

I am the whore and the holy one

I am the wife and the virgin

I am the mother and the daughter

I am the members of my mother.

I am the barren one

And many are her sons.

I am she whose wedding is great

And I have not taken a husband.

I am the midwife and she who does not bear.

I am the solace of my labour pains.

I am the bride and the bridegroom.

And it is my husband who begot me

I am the mother of my father.

Heart Centered

Since October I have been living with a frozen shoulder, and seriously questioning the source of its restricted movement - was I being asked to do less, to rest more? Yes, partly. Was I being asked to relinquish my self-stated role as Overarching Boss of Everything (at least in my household)? yes, partly.  Was it about surrendering to my left side, my receptive, feminine side and letting go of the yang, masculine active side? yes, partly.  But today I heard another piece of the message.

A friend of mine, Lauren Young http://ascendingenergies.com/ had set up an interview with me over the phone as practice for a class he is doing at the NHC (http://www.nhcinstitute.com/). He began by asking me if I had any questions - and the only thing that really popped up for me was a question relating to the shoulder injury.  He told me it was not related to doing too much, but more related to the heart energy and its expression being stuck. He suggested it was an energetic blockage, like a bunch of tangled knots in my shoulder, but coming from my heart's desire for full expression. (I first typed this as 'nots' in  my shoulder....hmmm)

While listening to him, I was getting an internal message that this might also be linked to my desire to be more public, more out there in the world with my message for women, with a new book I'm writing, the retreats and workshops I lead and need to publicize better.  And also aboutthe need to protect myself, the push-pull conflict of wanting to be more available for new opportunities, and yet fearful of how much I want my private time for myself, for quiet reading, reflection and resting.  It could also be about how I manifest my energy in the world - as loving energetically flowing person, or as fearful of being judged, vulnerable, unloveable person. Finally, what I learned is that the most important power I have within me is the power of my intention. What do I truly want?

This was an important new understanding for me, and I look forward to exploring it some more.

It was very helpful to have a trained, intuitive counsellor bring clarity and guidance on this issue. Thanks Lauren!

nameste
musemother/jenn

Quotes on Relaxation and Harmony

"A woman in harmony with her spirit is like a river flowing. She goes where she will without pretence and arrives at her destination prepared to be herself and only herself." --Maya Angelou

Tension is who you think you should be.  Relaxation is who you are.  ~Chinese Proverb

The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself." - Anna Quindlen

Quotes on Stress and slowing down

Sometimes the most important thing in a whole day is the rest we take between two deep breaths.  ~Etty Hillesum 

Don't underestimate the value of Doing Nothing, of just going along, listening to all the things you can't hear, and not bothering.  ~Pooh's Little Instruction Book, inspired by A.A. Milne

The time to relax is when you don't have time for it.  ~Attributed to both Jim Goodwin and Sydney J. Harris

Take rest; a field that has rested gives a bountiful crop.  ~Ovid

F or fast-acting relief, try slowing down.  ~Lily Tomlin

found on internet, stress quotes

Follow your Bliss

I first heard this in Joseph Campbell's book, the Power of Myth, but I also have a Zena Moon candle that has this lovely phrase and the following quote:

Don't ask what the world needs.
Ask what makes you come alive and go do it.
Because what the world needs is people
who have come alive.

Friedrich Nietzsche

Lovely reader, what makes you come alive?

musemother

Burying the dead twice

unlocks emotions tucked away
stuns the feet into stumbling along
with no understanding.
Normal gets lost when the other half is gone,
one side of your body goes numb,
the harness empty where a pair was.
How to relearn walking working waking
alone in bed at 2:00 am,
no sound of breath or snore to wake you
to comfort or discomfit you,
relearning snow tires, car rentals, traveling
without a navigator, groceries, hammer and nail.

To keep company with the dead, listen to their prayers
whining at the door, like a dog wanting in.
I’m afraid we’re all in the same boat.
No leaving before it hits shore.
No staying past your time,
very little say in the matter.

The coming and going of each breath
is a blessing, he said.
Count your blessings.


Jennifer Boire

A Thousand Kisses Deep

Don't you love Leonard Cohen's voice? so deep and passionate, so wise and admitting of vulnerability. Hearing a poem read is So much better....

This one,just found on Facebook youtube link, is also a song. The words alone are very poignant and moving.



Love the day!
Jenn/musemother